It’s been almost 2 months since I last posted, hasn’t it?
Then again, there isn’t really much to say. Life has been pretty mundane since I entered NS / the army. It’s the same old shit week after week. Book out on Fri/Sat, wash clothes and take a bath the moment I reach home and then get myself glued to the computer chair the whole day. I don’t even know what I do on the computer that takes up so much time. It’s a far cry from how colorful life was back when I was still schooling and stuff.
Army isn’t quite as bad as I expected it to be as well. Yet. It’s probably because I have some pretty awesome commanders and even when they punish us, it’s within reasons and not too bad. The training might be tough at times and I might choose to slack off, but I’m pretty sure that I’m much fitter than I ever was. I’ve lived 20 years without doing much exercise and now it’s like I’m getting paid to be fit – which isn’t such a bad thing after all.
Food sucks and I don’t get to do the things I enjoy until I book out, but it’s still acceptable. I might even say that I’m rather bored sometimes when I book out. There really isn’t much for me to do. I’ve lost contact with most of my friends so now I usually just hang around town with my sis and her 2 kids. As much as I love them, there are a lot of things you can’t do with 2 kids around.
Currently, I don’t have a girl friend or even just friends that I can hang out with on a weekly basis. I live a pretty loser-ish life, so if I’m happy when booking out, it’s just because I can see my family and eat the food I like. Sure, I can go ahead and make some “friends”, but because I’m a shy guy they usually just turn out to be more like acquaintances rather than “real friends”. I really, really envy people who have awesome friends and are living the life.
I’ve also lost directions in life. I’m a PhD (poly halfway dropout). Shameful, really, since I was in my final year when I dropped out and the appeal didn’t even succeed. With all that has been said and done, this is what my wish-list looks like :
- Make some major changes in life
- Get into a respectful career/school
- Get some real friends / soul-mates
- Pick a 3rd language
- Pick up some new skills (ie. playing a muscial instrument, dancing, photographing, etc.)
That’s all I ask for. It’s not too much to ask for, is it?
