Technically, this is an update just for the sake of updating since the blog’s been dead for way longer than I’d like. But, like always, when I see a blank space in front of me, I just itch to fill up that space with words.
After all, it’s the one thing I’m good at. Pretty words. Not like that’s helped me much though. I seriously can’t be bothered to use words to bootlick/kiss up to anyone. Nuh uh. Not the way I like words to be used. I just like the feel when words just flow out of me seamlessly and fill the space before me, giving a sense of life to something that was empty before I came by.
Of course, words have also failed me. Not keeping in contact with some people I wish I had. Not thinking of what to say until it’s already too late. Saying hurtful words, when all I meant to do was be honest and speak the truth – no wonder they say the truth hurts. Giving people false hopes… and then bring them crashing back to Earth. Motivating others… and then watching them do so much better than me and feeling just a pang of envy. Not being able to say out the words I want heard… but thank goodness for the internet/written media. I write way better than I speak which is pretty obvious to anyone that knows me.
But hey… words are there to be used, to create images and to bring emotions about. So why not? If I can bring tears to someone with just 3 words, imagine what a wall of text can do (bring headaches to trolls, lawl).
Anyways, back to updating the blog. I’m starting to feel… pretty lonely. There are way too many people I’ve stopped contacting with no way to contact them again without it feeling weird. People I want to reach out to, but dare not. I used to be fine with being alone, but now I’m actually craving for friends to just chill out with.
tl;dr WTB moar frenz.
